Persevering in a wave of bad fortune
You know that feeling when you’re just trying so hard every single day to get a little more close to your objective and then you just fail over and over again? It can be really frustrating, but that’s when perseverance comes in.
Getting my hopes up
I always try to put myself in a positive mindset whenever I don’t go through an internship selection process. Or when I apply for a English study scholarship at a foundation and don’t get emailed back. But, you know, that’s just what life is. Is more about its downs than it is about it ups.
This week I started to really look forward to studying and getting myself just a little further everyday by learning something new or practicing a current skill. And not just in Portuguese, which is my native language, but also in English, because that’s something that has been kind of sidelined throughout my life, up until the beginning of this never-ending pandemic back in March 2020.
I think it’s amazing whenever you get to a point in your learning path where you just look back and realize how far you’ve come. It’s mind-blowing to think that back in August 2020 I was super scared of talking in English, even though I did understand quite a lot for someone who had never had a formal language learning routine. And after having talked in a foreign language for 6 weeks in a internship program between October and November of 2021, I feel much more confident on taking on new challenges, whatever they might be.
Obviously a big part of that confidence also comes from talking every single week for almost an hour at my English classes on Friday. But as all places in life, there’s only so much you can learn from a controlled environment, and to have had the opportunity to talk to people from so many different countries was really something else.
Trying to say something, but not getting anywhere
But now you’re probably asking: “What does any of that has to do with the title? Like, you’re just trying to keep us here until you find something useful to say.”. You’re right. If you’re here, is probably because the algorithm suggested you this article and you got interested in the title, so I’ll give you what you want. *Pseudo-inspirational quote incoming*
Whenever you lose yourself, you get a new opportunity to find yourself. And that only happens when we get out of our comfort zone. The tipping point only happens when you get past that initial fear and push yourself further to abandon your old convictions and find a new self that makes more sense to you now.
In order for me to learn English, I had to talk to people more than I wanted to and also to interact with native speakers and elaborate presentations for a sustainability consulting company, whom I could not fail in any way. But I beat that.
If I want to get my first job, I have to study hard and practice the skills that can get me the internship I want. And that includes studying on holydays, reading a lot and embracing the struggle that it is to come from zero knowledge to some level of understanding. But I will beat that. It’s just a matter of time.
Finally getting somewhere
This text is probably much more relevant to myself than it is to other people, because I’m obviously focusing on my on journey, but I think it can maybe inspire someone who’s also feeling stuck in a rut. While also serving as a checkpoint for me. Whenever I feel down or don’t get something I really battled for, I will come back to this text and remember some challenges that I beat.
Finally, I can only say that it takes very little effort to get started, but a lot of it to get going. We all know it’s hard. But as a character from a wonderful TV show I’ve watched recently said, “Taking on a challenge is a lot like riding a horse, isn’t it? If you’re comfortable while you’re doing it, you’re probably doing it wrong”.